HURP DER DERP

( where is my mind? )

1. Have your music library ready.
2. Choose one (1) song from your music library whose title starts with the first letter (or number) of your screen name.
3. Repeat this process with each successive letter (or number) in your screen name until you run out of letters (or numbers).
4. Post up your results.
5. BONUS POINTS: Upload your mix (whether it's individual songs or a .zip of all the the songs) and include the mix in your post

Babysitter by Morning Wood
Everything I'm Not by The Veronicas
Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy
She Will Always Be A Broken Girl by She Wants Revenge
Transatlanticism by Death Cab For Cutie
Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word by Elton John

Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

from mythos

Yggdrasil (y'know, the Symphonia one): I WAS ACTUALLY QUITE SURPRISED AT THIS ONE because i have never actually played him anywhere (not that I don't want to, I just never really had the chance). Yggdrasil is one of my favorite video game antagonists of all time, and also one part of one of my giant fat fucked up pedo OTPs. The whole Fallen Hero trope is really appealing to me- not to mention his bugfuck crazy is just downright amusing sometimes (LOL SUP YUAN)

Rhode: RHODE RHODE RHODE. I apped her entirely on a whim and she got really popular really fast. Everyone knows I love killer lolis, and she is one of my favorites. I loved her as soon as her first scene with Allen cruxified to the wall was shown, with the whole 'I'm human too~' line. It's funny because while I don't really do DGM shipping for the most part, playing her got me really into Rhode/Allen. And Rhode/Sora, but that one totally wasn't my fault.

Yuuko: LOLOLOL. This is the character anyone who played in ID will associate me with. Yuuko is my baby- I can pick up her voice like that and I'm actually proud of how I play her. I really first fell in love with her when she had cameos in TRC, and when I picked up XXXHolic I was really blown away (because honestly, early holic was some of the best shit CLAMP's done in years). Of course, being a CLAMP character, my soul got dragged over the coals with this one. I've honestly ever cried about manga twice, and the scene where Watanuki tells Yuuko he wants to grant her wish is one of them.

Ryuuguu Rena: LMAO THIS ONE ALWAYS SURPRISES ME because I didn't really do that much with Rena when I played her, but apparently what I did stuck? She's just so cute, and after the Shion Arc has one of my favorites in the original Higurashi series. I'm kind of sad that I've never really gotten to play her Axe Crazy side, but her usual normalness with weird, underlying psycho is good too.

/d/: Is what I fap to. I'M NOT GOING TO ELABORATE.

from punkish

Porn.: I IN FACT HAVE NO PORN SAVED ON MY COMPUTER. I just go browse the web for it whenever I want to fap because I'm so afraid of someone finding evidence of what gets me off, lol.
Yuuko.: see above.
Blue.: Is a color! It was my favorite for a while. It's currently pink, but anyone who knows me irl can attest that 65% of my wardrobe is blue. lulz.
YouTube videos of cute animals.: SO ONCE UPON A TIME someone posted this super cute kitty video on twitter, so I found another one and posted it back, and then everyone started posting them, and it was a crazy fun adorable time. I still post some that I find criminally cute on my twitter, just because stuff like that cheers me up, and I hope it might cheer up anyone who's following me and having a shitty day too.
Vesperia.: is one the best games I've played in a long, long time. I rarely finish video games, but this is one of the exceptions. The reason I love it so much probably has a lot to do with the character relationships. You can actually believe that these people would stick together through hell and high water, because you see all their relationships developing and you can tell they all actually care about each other. It's also one of the first times I've shipped the fandom slash favorite, because I can actually see the characters together. Not to mention the antagonist is possibly one of my favorites ever, due to the fact that you really can't call him a villain, which is rare in tales of games, let alone video games in general.

from furious

SHOTA: oh my god um. I am really not squicked by a lot of things, and shouta is one of those things that while most people go 'OH MY GOD THIS IS TERRIBLE' i just go 'huh'. and occasionally enjoy. I don't exactly go out seeking shouta manga, but if I come across a pairing I like where one of them is pretty underage I. really don't mind! Jun and I often talk about how our standards for lowest age to be in a relationship keep going down, sob.

YUUKO: LMAO SEE ABOVE

GOSSIP GIRL: I love trash. Gossip Girl is some delicious fucking trash. I love all the stupid drama and all of Chuck's completely ridiculous catchphrases (and fashion decisions). There was also that one time Alison and I RPed two of our characters watching it and. almost ever single one of the predictions they made happened. It was pretty epic.

PERSONA 3: yeah yeah yeah I know Persona 4 was better but JESUS CHRIST FANDOM THIS WAS STILL A GOOD GAME. I CRIED AT THE END. I honestly really enjoyed the ending, and liked all of the characters (yes, even Yukari. bitches.). I also have to say that I was happy it stayed away from some of the topics that made me uncomfortable in P4 (Naoto's speech after her shadow, the fat girl). SO IN SHORT: I LOVE THIS GAME. IT MIGHT NOT BE AS GOOD AS P4, BUT I LOVE IT. I WILL DEFEND IT LIKE A RABID WHITEKNIGHT LOOKING TO GET LAID BY SOME SCENESTER BITCH.

SETSUNA: is my baby. I love his stupid ass to little itty bitty pieces. He is one of those characters I am very protective over and can never really play as another character with a Setsuna because the only thing I can think about is what I would've done in response to something and how bad I think they are. I am kind of prideful about how I play him, and honestly have yet to see one that I think is as good as me. Basically, when it comes to GUNDAM, i am a crazy bitch. Don't judge me.

Also Eternal Sonata really sucks in all aspects other than gameplay, sorry to say.

alright brain. I know making dreams about RP characters is nothing new.

Making dreams with RP characters for an RP I was never even in with homo undertones, on the other hand, is.

sob.

god okay so I've been awake for 14 hours which isn't that bad. But for the last five I had to sit in bed. awake. thinking about shit.

I immediately felt bad after posting my last journal entry and yammering on in twitter because. The things I'm going through really aren't a big deal? Compared to just about everyone I know I've got things pretty fucking peachy, so I guess I feel like I don't have the right to complain.

This is what I do when I can't fall asleep- it's what I've always done for as long as I can remember. I just think about all the things that I've done recently (or not so recently) that I'm ashamed of. I don't really get 'embarrassed'; I only get ashamed. I think about things I did years ago that were just me being a dumb kid and I still feel ashamed. I really hate to talk about what brings up those feelings, especially because I might worry someone when this whole thing is mostly in my head, so.

Another thing I was thinking about was this school trip I would've been potentially going on in the fall. It's the second part for this class I passed but. The fact is I would be going away from home with a group of people I do not trust to a place roughly 18 hours away from home with no way back and no connection to the outside world and I cannot fucking handle that. I feel like I'm letting my teacher and my mom who were expecting me to do this down, because at this point I am 99% certain I'm not going to do it. I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to do something like that, and I honestly doubt it.

I'm supposed to start summer school today, but I didn't sleep. I need to leave in an hour, so I don't know. I don't want to go. I want to sleep but can't, and the last time I was in my old high school I had a panic attack, so.

I guess I feel like I can't just stick anything through? Ha.

yeah /spams flist but whatever you can take it. LOOK AT THIS SHIT YOU CAN'T EVEN HANDLE IT. FLYNN AND YURI BEING STUPID TEENAGERS. FLYNN AND YURI BEING DOMESTIC. FLYNN AND YURI KILLING SHIT. RAVEN STILL BEING SKEEVY. RITA AND ESTELLE ... IDK WHAT THEY'RE DOING BUT FUCK YEAH THEY'RE DOING SOMETHING!!!

lmao my parents are arguing about whether our not our neighbor should be dating a girl half his age or not.

but blah blah icon meme from zionga

❶ Reply to this post, and I will pick six of your icons.
➋ Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
➌ Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
➍ This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.

( and no one's gonna tear me down )

1. bitch and whine at me to make you dinner
2. do nothing to assist me in making said dinner
3. when said dinner is done bitch and whine about how i didn't cook it right

fsdflshfasf

so, everyone knows I love yuuko. and just about every who listens to me baw on twitter knows that she's finally taken the dirt nap (SPOILERS!)

TO HELP WITH THE GRIEF i made an fst with bad music and badder graphics. YAY!!!

( across the universe - a yuuko tribute )

Snatched this from several people, last one I can remember is offensive

Top 10 Disney songs meme! In no particular order!

( this was actually hard )

WHERE

IS

MY

BABY

eta oh nvm it's cool we found him down by the river 8|

ETA 2 characters and free music charlie!!!

lol so ALONG WITH KAIMOLLY BEING GONE I am going to be going out to Chicago for the weekend because my mom's out there for some lawyery conference thing and she. Doesn't want to leave me alone? I don't really get her reasoning but like. Since I haven't been in downtown Chicago very much for a couple years and the last time I was it was ... not so great so WE'LL SEE HOW THAT GOES. aka semi-hiatus? idk.

Maddy is freaking the fuck out WHAT IS WRONG BABY?

AND IT SEEMS TO ME YOU LIVED YOUR LIFE LIKE A CANDLE IN THE WIND~~~

THIS IS GOING TO BE LONG

So. Things were kinda lol yesterday. I am better today! I'm basically over it, and I would like to apologize to the people who were offended with my 'my way or the highway' attitude re: pbs. That was rude and uncalled for, and childish was childish of me. I am sorry.

As for my over all behavior over the last few months, I also apologize for the way I've been acting in chat. It is true I have a lot of shit going on, but that doesn't excuse me for being a bitch, I'm sorry.

I've talked with everyone who I assumed had problems with my behavior/who I could've offended, but if you still have something you want to talk out with me or anything at all, you can still IM! I will be on! Just press the send button, I will do my best to resolve it with you, I promise!

anywho, I do still want to do that rp.

( shit about the actual rp goes here )

YOU KNOW WHAT? I GUESS I'VE ALWAYS BEEN A FUCKING BITCH AND JUST NOW DECIDED TO ACT ON MY BITCHY ACTIONS, SINCE THAT'S WHAT EVERYONE I TALK TO ONLINE AND IRL HAS BEEN SAYING TO ME RECENTLY. I WAS UPSET WITH YOU MAKING A BIG DEAL OVER THIS, ALISON, BECAUSE YOU DIP OUT OF EVERYONE'S LIVES AND THEN JUST POP BACK IN WITH THIS AND I THINK SHIT'S GOING TO BE COOL AGAIN BUT THEN YOU JUST GO TEARING ME DOWN AND I BITCH BACK IN RETURN AND APPARENTLY I'M THIS HORRIBLE PERSON NOW THAT EVERYONE'S JUST BEEN TO AFRAID TO CALL OUT

I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO ADDRESS ALL THE SHIT THAT'S BEEN SAID BY EVERYONE- BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT? I AM FUCKING CRYING OVER HAPPY FUCKING PRETENDY TIMES GAMES. AND I AM FUCKING DONE. SO FUCK YOU, FUCK THE HORSE YOU FUCKING RODE IN ON, GO AND LAUGH AT MY 'OMG LEAVING THE INTERNETS FOREVER!!1111' POST, BECAUSE I'M JUST A BIG DUMB CHILDISH BRAT WHO'S A SELFISH BITCH AND WILL REGRET THIS TOMORROW ETC ETC

I DIDN'T FUCKING NEED THIS RIGHT NOW, YOU ALL KNOW IT, SO FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE

Poll #1403154 pbs
This poll is closed.
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All

which one

please don't vote on this if you're not actually going to play. Now i'm going out to burn more shit.

eta: still doing animu pbs, lol.

Poll #1402526 RP LOCATION
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IF YOU HAD AN OC RP WHERE WOULD IT BE

ETA: ALRIGHT HOLD THE PHONE CHICAGO IS CONFIRMED. ty everyone.